Hello again guys. So, I haven’t posted in a while, and today I want to talk about a very sad state of affairs.
Some of you may remember that the last time I posted, I had met a guy who, on paper, was perfect. 110% long-term boyfriend material in my eyes. Well, things have been going swimmingly for a month/a month and a half. Dates were fun, interesting, and never without laughter. Hand holding and cuddles were lovely. In my mind, things were getting pretty good, and I was beginning to fall very hard for this guy.
**** and then those words that no one ever wants to hear were uttered…… “I think we should just be friends”. I mean, eesh. At this point, I am very confused. Did I do something? What is going on in his brain? As if this phrase wasn’t enough, he even pulled out the “it’s not you, it’s me” line. So yesterday (when this was all happening), all the blooming cliches were coming out. I had only, earlier that day, been talking to my best friend about how he was amazing. How I was sure things would pan out with this guy and how I was certain it would be a very serious thing.
When I was having a little cry and shoving a bag of maltesers in my face (I regret nothing), I got to thinking that somewhere along the line, we/I/he obviously got very confused as to how this was meant to carry on haha.
So, where did the wires get crossed? Well, unless I have been a right mug, it must have been after sunday evening, as we went out on a date on sunday (cinema, meal, spot of shopping), and I even met his parents (which to me, and I imagine atleast half the population, is quite a serious step). So at some point between me leaving on sunday evening, and wednesday evening, something went very wrong. And I have no idea what it is.
I think the fact that I don’t know why, or the thought process behind it, is making the situation harder to deal with. I mean, yes i understand that sometimes people just dont click, but I was getting all the right signals from this guy. But I have to come to terms with the fact that he is sticking to the “its just a feeling I have” story, so I will probably never understand it.
Where I go from here? Well, I guess now it is back to the drawing board that is the dating game and wait to see what happens. I have half resigned myself to the idea that 20 years from now, I will still be sat here writing a single life blog. But who knows hey. Only time will tell.
What I will say is that my friends are amazing and have been so supportive since all this hit the fan so I want to say a massive thank you to them for being the best in the world.
See you in my next blog, where I will let you all know what the game plan is now. Thanks for reading.
C, x.
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